I know it doesn’t work. I can see that they sometimes do still care about each other, and at times I can still see the love. But there’s too much pride and hurt in the process that reconciliation seems bleak. I don’t hope. But whenever things like today happen, I still get hurt watching.
It only takes a second for a beautiful day to turn into a complete disastrous mess of an apocalyptic future. And it started just before I ate lunch.
It’s not my place to give details, but what seems to be a peaceful truce between my separated parents went berserk when this f*cking news came. Well, my Mom assumes that Dad did this thing but it’s not really what’s happening and I know the truth and I told her, but she wouldn’t believe me and tells me that I’m always taking Dad’s side.
I got angry and sad and it’s f*cking frustrating really. Mom always assumes.
And what’s now a minor thing, may or may not end in court.
I’m already 26. 2 years ago, my parents’ separation was a shock to everyone because it came out of nowhere. Even to us, their children. We always expect them to be able to sort out their differences. And people still ask if I still haven’t moved on from my parents’ separation.
I’m already 26. People always ask me when will I be married because my older siblings got married earlier than my current age.
I’m already 26. And I’ve seen my fair share of failed relationships.
I’m already 26. And I’m cynic and pragmatic. Bad combination. And I’m said to be a bad example and a bad influence.
I’m already 26.
Don’t assume that I have to answer to anyone’s expectation of me. Don’t dictate me when to stop hurting. When I chose to marry. How much is a freelancer’s wage. Or that I smoke.
One of the things that I’m proud of is that even if I carry this incredible parcel of sadness wrapped in fancy paper, my legs shaking of its weight, I still managed to smile.
I’m not always open to my friends as much as they are to me, but the thing that I’m grateful about them is that I don’t say anything, yet they console me in times that I need it.
I feel another headache coming.
I was sick for 2 days now, I think. Allergies kicked in and everything else followed, so I’m cooped up (more so than usual) in this four cornered sanctuary where time seemed to stop.
What else is there to do?
I read Pride and Prejudice, again.
It’s my all time favorite book, and I can’t seem to tire in reading it. I love the eloquent banter, the comedic realism and astounding observation.
Which led me to download Lost in Austen (a city girl found herself in early 1800’s in the Pride and Prejudice timeline, and Elizabeth Bennet came to 2008 London). It’s a big leap from norms because I always admire the faithfulness of an adaptation, but this one is like the most ridiculous literary jest I have seen that I actually wish the Philippines would do something like that with Noli Me Tangere. But Pride and Prejudice is actually a bit comedic, so I don’t think it would work on Noli Me Tangere (or maybe it would).
Two of my boredom-busters, are Tumblr and Pinterest. If you’re reading this, you actually know what I mean. Hahaha! One cannot escape the eye appealing jpegs/gifs of your favorite fandom, quirky blogs of facts and food porn.
I saw this one post about Teuksora and JJ couple (I’m a fan of both, I mean how cute is Junhee’s reactions? But I’m still a Teuksora by heart) and I was actually also wondering about it for a long time.
A lot of WGM couples were actually always talking about their husband or wife, but after a few mentions of Sora and Teuk about each other in their radio shows in 2011, I can’t seem to find anything else after. A few mentions here and there, but not so much. You would think that Leeteuk with his variety shows, who was always known for promoting everything that is to do with him, he would think of always mentioning his wife. But then I remembered the SS4 concert ring event where Sora got a ton of haters.
Ah that look of happiness really. Maybe he’s protecting her. Or you know, they’re real and everything was blocked. I’d rather if it’s the latter. Wahihihihi~ <3 My addiction, really.
Speaking of addictions, before Kpop occupied my heart, it was all filled with Jazz, Bossa Nova, Easy Listening, Alternative Rock and Acoustic Guitars. I still love them, but only got a chance to listen to it now, while I’m currently sick because it’s soothing. I don’t think listening to the ever boisterous Kpop would help me rest.
But the thing is, I’m listening to Lite Jazz, but it’s still in Hangungmal. Hahahaha! Acoustic Collabo’s Sweet Love. I was listening to Renee Olstead earlier, but the former is also in my Easy Listening playlist.
Btw, I changed my message alert tone from “yeppeun eonnie, moonja washong” to heechul’s “chonun pabonikka” from intimate note. Recorded it and had me laughing nonstop.
Hahahaha! Heesica is so priceless.
That’s it. Now I’m hungry.
More Facts on Psychofacts :)
My mom does it!
When asked how it felt to be the smartest man alive Einstein’s reply was “I don’t know, you’ll have to ask Nikola Tesla.”
Good Guy Tesla
nikola goddamn tesla
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Find out if you’re an introvert of extrovert by following the link on here: http://neurolove.me/post/48232160310/are-you-introverted-or-extraverted
still laughing when ever I see this clip.
I think what i’m most excited about in Finding Dory is what happened to these guys
(Source: levicastiel, via the-manila-institute)