- Kisama - Japanese
- As to thialo - Greek
- Dorme mecum - Latin
- Javla - Swidish
- Fick dich - German
- Cao ni - Mandarin
- Fuck you - English
- Ssibal - Korean
- Chodela - Hindi
- PUTANG INA MONG HAYOP KANG ANIMAL KA MAMATAY KA NGAYON DIN PAKYU KA ULOL BOBO NANAY MO TANGA TATAY MO ULOL KA MAGPAKAILANMAN! - Filipino (Tagalog)
LAKAS! Hahahaha. Rich in culture.
[AGGRESSIVELY SINGS ALONG WITH THE WORDLESS GAME OF THRONES INTRO]
I told the company that I could come back together with Leeteuk, but the dongsaengs insist I come back for SS5. Good thing they like me. —
ahhh… I miss my babies!!
I don’t think anyone can claim that they said anything first. The world being as it is, there’s so many languages and people have different kinds of intelligence and different ways on expressing these things. What I’m saying is, I don’t know if I’m the first to say it or not, but since I can’t quote anyone but myself, sorry if I’m stepping on anyone.
I just thought, the sound of an awkward silence is always loud.
I have my fair share of awkward silences from the past and as of late. But it never fails to amaze me how loud it seems. I don’t know if anyone would get me, but it feels loud. It doesn’t physically affect the ears (except for that feeling of stuffed cotton balls whenever your blood rises to your head) but it’s there. The loudness of silence that speaks volumes.
I’m not one to always feel awkward, because boisterous and eccentric I may be, but I love the silence. But there are times…maybe because of certain people. Hahahaha!
I’m not really good at expressing things that I want to convey. Not even anger - which is saying a lot because I’m hot-tempered and they always say that I’m like a ranging lion at times, but really, that’s just the tip of the iceberg. It’s not even close to what I’m capable of doing.
I don’t know if I got that from my mother, but she’s not really shy. And I am, ever since I could remember. I hate PDAs even. Poor ex-BFs had to endure a lot for me, huh?
Anyway, lately, I had a lot of well, feelings *insert blush here* for certain people and situations but all I could do was what, look impassive. What an idiot am I?
There was this one time that I was so touched, I couldn’t even say thanks properly. I told him to buy me something from Starbucks on his way. The really cute thing is, I forgot to mention what. He dropped by and gave me a Grande Green Tea Soy Latte, Extra Hot. I rarely order that in front of him, but he remembered that that’s how I order it.
There was this very awkward situation that I’m or was or I dunno if I’m still, in? That was confusing. Anyway, I don’t know how to react. I’m not angry at him, but I feel awkward because of the kiss that transpired (first time I’m mentioning here or anywhere else) and I don’t want the friendship to deteriorate into nothing. We were once really close, but now, whenever I see him, I can’t stop picturing that kiss. I’m afraid that it will never be the same again. I can’t tell him off either. O_O <-really the expression on my face right now.
There’s also those fandoms, addictions or whatever you call it. Not really one to always broadcast how much I like something. But I love Leeteuk (especially with Sora), Super Junior, SNSD, CNBlue and 2AM. Hahaha! I love Game of Thrones. I love Harry Potter Series! I love Draco Malfoy! I love the Infernal Devices more than the Mortal Instruments (but I also love TMI)! I’m curious about Doctor Who because I haven’t watched any episode and I don’t know how to start. I love How I Met You Mother! I love the Big Bang Theory! I love the earlier seasons of the Community more than the recent one. I love Naruto! I love We Got Married! I love Once Upon A Time! I love FOOD! I LOVE COOKING KOREAN and JAPANESE DISHES!!! Ahhh~ That’s all I remember for now. It feels good to type that.
It’s not about shyness. I just don’t know how to convey. I wish everything I had to say to people had to be done via written explanations.
People mistake me for being boisterous. Sometimes eccentric. Sometimes stoic. Impassive. Sometimes taciturn. Hard to read. Well, let me tell you. I’m not single labeled. I’m all those things.
You know, I forgot my point along the way. Hahahaha!!
29 March 2013: LeeTeuk’s new Cyworld pic is his WEDDING pic. OMO!
Assdfghjdsat WHAT ARE YOU DOING Park Jung Su!
Sometimes you know when it’s coming. You can see it like a blob of black goo from a mile away. You can choose to ignore or embrace it, but it will happen anyway. Like an unavoidable storm. But you still have time to bring an umbrella.
At times, it’s gradual. Like vines creeping in and taking place in the crevices of your heart and the chinks in your armor. It’s hard to shake off, but you still have a choice.
…when it’s like a bomb. This sudden change where you realize that it’s here. Slapping your face like icy winds on a winter day. Or the cold storm that suddenly fell. You don’t have time to adjust. You are forced to accept. And even if the icy winds felt painful, you have to live with it. You don’t have an umbrella to cover yourself. You just get to soak all the painful cold wind and rain.
But some people say, there’s no use crying over spilt milk.
It’s like telling a widow not to mourn, because “the dead ain’t comin’ back”. Which would be insensitive.
What’s wrong with crying? People don’t always have to be strong. Holding it in is asking for too much.
I have quality conversations with my friends, like when we were driving up towards Tagaytay last Sunday. It ranged from Geography, History, Religion to just some gay slang gibberish. Yesterday, I also had one. But you know what’s killing it? Technology.
Last week, I found myself smoking my ass off while sipping coffee. As I looked around our table, every one of them busy. Doing what? Looking at their cellphones or tablets. They’re posting on social networking sites and tagging each other, while others comment on that post. Some were playing games. Pathetic isn’t it? Why can’t we just talk and just post later? It was probably the first that I hated it, that moment with them. It was a first time that I got angry in a very long time.
I think I’m justified in getting a bit mad, I think. I just want to spend time together. With the busy scheds and the endless things to do, craving a good conversation is what I really want. It refreshes my brain and makes it function again. At the moment, I’m still irked at them. Is it wrong to ask them to just put the phone down?
I’m just venting out.
I told them off, but nothing. They just laughed it off. Annoying isn’t it? I’d have walked out then if it weren’t so far from home. I stayed silent.
The thing I’m afraid of, is if it gets worse. Urgh.
Finding out their thoughts and whereabouts on facebook and twitter instead of telling it to me straight out? ANNOYING.
Yesterday, Sr. Nina came over and we had one of those good conversations that just came out of nowhere and ended being profound.
She was asking my opinions for she was having problems with vocation recruits. I told her, though not so eloquently, that the problem with the earlier honing of vocation potentials, is that, they were looking at the same place and the same people, people who serve at the church. What of the people that are not introduced in those situations? Are they not called?
We brag about beging evolved in our way of thinking, but the truth is, we are still crippled by traditions, by standards, by labels.
I told Sr. Nina that they were looking at immobile people at the front of God’s door. Yes I’m talking about the people serving God. Yes they can and will move at their own time, but the thing about them being at the door of decision, is that they can still opt to turn back or not move at all. I told her to look for people who are walking forward. Even if they were still miles away from the door. Because for me, it seems like those people are the people who are decided. They decided to walk, only they don’t know which way to go. And introducing them to the door which leads to a life of prayer and mission is like giving a walking man a pathway, a purpose. I’m not the type to explain well, but I’m glad she understood and she said it’s a good analogy and will probably reflect on it.
We also talked about Love and Friendship. I’ve blogged about it before, about the kinds of love and that friendship is the foundation of everything because it is a choice that you made. I said before that Sr. Nina is in love and we have talked about that. I am again, moved by the story. Love really transcends barriers. It was one of the most beautiful stories that I’ve heard, which sadly I couldn’t share.
Looking ahead side by side instead of looking at each other, she said. I smile in realizations of what’s important.
We also discussed about the worth and value of things. And what of true love? Does it have to be reciprocal? I told her that nothing is worth anything. People give it value and worth. I told her, if I give you something irrelevant like a bottle, and you chose to keep it, you gave it value by keeping it, thus, giving it worth. I wouldn’t give you something if I know you wouldn’t need it, thus making me value the act of concern.
She told me to try taking Philosophy classes. I laughed because I don’t know what I would do with it, but now, I’m seriously thinking about it.
We learned a lot yesterday. She told me to think of the things that are important and try living life with a zeal for living. Try to think of what I really want to do because, as she says, I’m a jack of all trades but a master of none. It stung because it’s true. I will reflect and try to think of what my purpose is.
I will start by reading the book she gave me yesterday. The Shack by WM. Paul Young.
Tama na ang english! Kumbaga sabi nga ni Gomer, hindi na nosebleed, nose-blasting na sa dami ng dugesh na nag-escape galore sa ilong.
Trip ko lang magblog ng tagalog, mga nonsense na bagay lang bago ko mapanaginipan na hinahabol ako ng mga zombadings na gwapo pero gustong kainin ang laman loob ko.
Ano nga ba ang latest? Tama na muna ang mga kunwaring deep akong tao at maraming feelings and such (in other words, alastor moody ang drama). Kanina pinanood namin ung musical play nina Elliot na Poknat. Medyo messy pa in some places kasi ang daming plot holes at hindi man lang nila hinati hati yung play kaya ayun, boom! In fairness, natawa talaga ako ng bongga. Watching Elliot with his fight scenes had me laughing so hard, nasamid yata ako sa sarili kong laway. Yung mga shoklaness naman sa ensemble eh talagang nadala ako. Mas magaling pa magbakla baklaan ang mga straight na lalaki kesa sa mga tunay na bading.
Pero talagang magaling si Poknat. I forgot her name but she was really good. And the kid that was her friend. Pero yun nga eh, si Poknat yung bida, pero too much time was spent in long irrelevant scenes. Kulang sa character build-up si Poknat mismo. Ang alam lang namin, mapagmahal na retarded sya. Magaling lang talaga si Poknat kaya nadala ang mga tao. Hindi ko nga magets kung para saan ung story within a story, sina Principe Aquano, eh wala din naman kinalaman sa storya ni Poknat. Buti sana kung may moral story na may kinalaman sa conclusion ng Poknat. Bukod sa “fight for love” at “parang tanga si Elliot”, wala nakong makitang sense dun. Sorry naman kung mababasa to ng Poknat production, pero work on the story more. Delete unnecessary scenes, and for goodness sake, wag naman iilan lang ang scenes ni Poknat! Di ko maexplain ng maayos pero messy talaga.
The music is okay lang. Pero too long. Isang buong kanta sya with refrain and chorus and may bridge pa ata yung iba, I mean, those are like pop songs or love songs. Not the kind you do dialogues with. Like parang, script talaga? Di mo na dapat pang ulitin. Kaya siguro ang tatagal ng mga song numbers.
Bukod dun ano pa nga ba? Wala akong maisip. Di ko nga alam bakit ipopost ko pa to. Pampadagdag gulo lang to. Hahahaha! Churi aman. XD
Gusto kong magswimming. Feeling ko naglalakad na si Satanas sa labas dahil sa sobrang init!
Gusto kong magovernight sa Tagaytay, Laguna or sa Baguio. Hihihihi!
Naeexcite ako sa Holy Week. Lapit na!
Napepressure ako sa concert sa May! Sana ma-cancel. Hahahahaha!
Dami ko pa dapat gawin, pero bukas na lang. Procrastinators, unite! Aja Aja! Fighting~
Huey is Coming: [Trans - Part 1] 2013 March 08, Sora Interview with Sina -
[Trans - Part 1] 2013 March 08, Sora Interview with Sina. “Dialogue with Kang Sora: Have regrets towards Lee Teuk, Like Tony Leung, Wei Tang”
(Translated by luvallkorea, English from Chinese article)
* Some sentences are paraphrased for grammar.
新浪娱乐讯 一部《Sunny》(又译《阳光姐妹淘》)让很多观众认识并爱上了那个率直有义气的大姐大，《Dream High2》又让大家看到了一个热爱音乐的女孩，《我们结婚了》
Wrongly opened it while I was working. Tried not to scream in the middle of a Skype conference call! Kya~ <3